Mind The Gap 2

I always have really weird pieces of idea... Today, during my work I suddenly thought "Oh, I've always been carrying this brain in my daily life". Although I can't see why I am thinking this, maybe it can be related with the days I had always been said as "You are really strange" and "You are so weird", therefore they were for me traumatic one.

The people like me (in other words, the ones who have too characteristic brains and therefore do weird things) are called as autistic people. This is a new concept, and we started talking about this as an important topic in Japan. Now, not only in Japan, but all over the world I heard that how to accept and educate those autistic people is an important theme for us.

But I want to talk about the actual feeling I've been having. I have always felt that I am really different from other people, so the society always says to me "Mind the gap!". I had been said and done a lot which I can't confess even now. Those stressful days lasted until the end of my teenage, and I had to face the serious doubt to others even though the bullying had finished. But where can I find the reason why?

I write "where can I find the reason why?". Because to find a solution, I can say that "I am the one who are to be blamed". In other words, "I am autistic, therefore that's the reason". It also means that "I am only the one who products the reason". I am the only one who is responsible. 

But, although this is a copy of Kiyoshi Kurosawa's idea in his novel, I can suggest two more solutions for this case. One is that "Because the world is not tender for the autistic people". In a way, we can blame others. Me, once I stood by this perspective and said that "Therefore you shouldn't blame me". And the last one is "Both sides have the reason (or both sides shouldn't be blamed)". Is it weird? I am talking about "mismatching".

If we can choose any other words, then it will be how to treat and control the relationship. In Japanese, we have an interesting expression "Otagaisama". Not blaming others too much is actual. I started thinking so. But I can't see why I am choosing this way. Why can I have reached this idea? 

I guess that we have to gain the wisdom which enables us to treat the gap between autism and the world. "Before" deciding that "You are bad" too directly, we should see the facts... as I write this, I think of the fact that I have achieved to be able to face the world properly with my job coaches.

I named the title "Mind the gap" without any deep thought, but now I find that it is really "chewy" and "tasty" for me.